FOUR

I'd been neglecting my updates, but as you know, I'm actually busy having a life. So writing a blog to me seems somewhat self-serving and indulgent and I need to steal moments from my regular life just to write it.
I'm hoping that in the long run it would be worth it. Isn't that what life is all about? Just trying to see if what you've accomplished is 'worth' something to someone somewhere? I guess it all depends on the spin you give it. After all, there ARE people right now who spend their time flipping burgers at the Mickey D's and we all look at that as 'having no life.' Of course, it could be that their life was worth it because they said something to someone which prevented that someone from taking their life. Ok, yes, it's a bit melodramatic to think that way, but I'm trying to put a positive spin on flipping burgers because the universal attitude towards that kind activity is that only lowlife people have those occupations and that working at a burger joint universally sucks.

Meanwhile, we move on from my memories of that radiator and rats under the TV to my memory of my very first pet, which was a slider turtle. I don't know if it was a baby or just a type of small species turtle. It was incredibly small and tiny. I used to stroke it's head to get it to come out. Actually, I don't think I stroked it, I think I might have pulled on its head to make it come out. Truthfully,I was too little to have a pet turtle. Anyway, it died pretty quickly. And part of me feels guilty because maybe it was because I kept overhandling it. So, it died and disappeared. Turtles aren't good pets for kids. But my parents didn't know that. Turtles have salmonella in their skins so you are supposed to wash your hands. Of course, since nobody around us knew that, none of us did that. I shudder to think I could've died really young. And my brothers and sister could've died really young too. You know, this is why education is important. It's little facts like washing your hands after handling a turtle important. When you know something, you have a better chance at a longer life. Or else, if you survive, you're just plain lucky.

But even with all the education I have had, I think I'm just plain lucky to still be here.